What a way to bring in the new year. Thinking I was off to a wonderful start I was completley wrong. Let's see I am now 4 months pregnant, looking for a house, and engaged. Well all good things must come to an end. Eventually things did not go so well and we ended up splitting up.

By the time April rolled around we some how worked things out and we got back together.

This pregnancy was very hard on my body and I had some complications due to Preeclampsia/Toxemia and had my daughter a month early. I had a healthy beautiful baby girl Kariann!!!! No one can prepare you for having a baby. All the sleepless nights and days, feedings, changing's and crying. I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world. Okay, maybe just for a few hours of sleep. We decided it would be best for me not to work and to stay home with my daughter. What a mistake that turned out to be.

Just when you think you have everything you have wanted. It slips right out from under you.

I just turned 21 and it will be a birthday I will never ever forget. I feel like a total failure for I lost almost everything. I lost my apartment, my phone, the electricity and I had to walk 2 miles to the nearest pay phone to call my mother and have her come pick me & my daughter up.

Once again, he left and this time I told myself I would never take him back. This Christmas is going to be so much different. Just one year ago I was engaged, pregnant and happy. It is amazing what life can throw at you. I just hope 1998 will be much better for me. Fingers are crossed and only time will tell.